We were at Costco a couple days ago and Bea insisted on steering the cart. In other grocery stores this is an awkward but doable request. (As long as the store is fairly empty…) Costco’s carts, like their products, are larger than the average so Bea has to strain to reach the handle. It took us about 8 minutes to walk half an aisle with this method… Whenever I would suggest help, she would insist that she was Big Enough!! And we had to explain that, while she is growing up, she just needs to be a bit taller. Perhaps one of the hardest truths of childhood.
This had me thinking about my own desire to be at the next phase in life. Sometimes I just want to get to the next opportunity, without messing around in the lessons I’m learning right now. I’m trying to find that balance between active anticipation of the promise of a restored earth and the reality of living in the grittiness and frustration of the not-quite-yet.
I can feel bogged down in all the injustice and the fact that I feel helpless to do anything about it. I guess I just want to be bigger – to have more degrees or more authority or more ideas to actually help a situation. Instead, I’m looking at the small moments and tiny ways in which I can help now. Whether through giving financial support to those who already do amazing work to educating myself to simply praying for those in need.
Every night before bed I read this Compline prayer and I’m slowly letting it sink into my daily outlook:
We cannot do everything, and there is a sense of liberation in realizing that. This enables us to do something, ad to do it well. It may be incomplete, but it is a beginning, a step along the way, an opportunity of the Lord’s grace to enter and do the rest.
How do you balance living in the moment and looking toward the hope of tomorrow?
Linked with Kate Motaung’s Five Minute Friday, a time to write without editing.